Infertility can kiss my bruised, lumpy butt.

Whew, here we are. Our journey is over. While it is extremely heartbreaking that all of the shit we went through was for nothing, I can have my body back. No more hormones!! No more daily pill case!! No more shots!! ALLLLLL THE WINE!! Those are the positives, and they are HUGE positives for me.… Continue reading The One Where It Was Over

As promised, I’m bringing you along for real time updates for this last transfer. I tested this morning, which is 5 days past 5 day transfer (5dp5dt)…equivalent to 10dpo for my ovulation tracking girlies. Stark white. Nothing. Nada. Is it early? Yes. Is it still possible that I will get a positive? Yes. Am I… Continue reading Not yet

Here she is, our last embryo. 💕 She is now all snug in my uterus, hopefully continuing to hatch, burrowing her way in and ready to stay and grow for the next 9 months. This is right at the thaw. This one is right before he sucked it up into the catheter for transfer…she’s hatching!… Continue reading Our last embryo 💕

Ya girl is having a day. I have been on estrogen blockers for 8 out of the past 12 months and it is HARD. This day has had so many ups and downs and it’s not even 3pm. I did a great 45 min ride, loved it, and crushed my previous PR. Then I stepped… Continue reading A day

Writing has always calmed me in times of stress, so let’s give this a shot. I honestly don’t remember when or what the last update was, so sorry if I repeat anything! We have been trying to move to San Antonio for Dan’s continued medical care basically ever since the accident happened (March 24th). To… Continue reading Life update

The thought of our last transfer is starting to feel very heavy as it gets closer. On one hand, I can’t possibly describe the happiness I feel every time I pick up the meds from hell, that I know that this is the actual last time I have to go through this. On the other… Continue reading Heavy

For 5 years, I’ve given my body, mind, and soul to infertility. It has consumed me. Synthetic hormones have taken over my body and mind. There have been very few days in the past 5 years that I haven’t been on some medication or other, altering basically everything about me. My poor husband deserves an… Continue reading Showing up for myself

Well. After speaking with my nurse (who is honestly the best ever) last week, it turns out that I can’t transfer again until April 10. I’ve been so bitter about this that I didn’t even want to write about it. I’ve just been stewing. All I wanted was to get it done as quickly as… Continue reading Pity Party

We got the official call yesterday that the transfer didn’t work. I’ve known for awhile, but it’s official now after the blood test. I talked with my dr in the evening and we have a plan for the last one. I’m doing 2 more months on the medication from hell (and then never again), then… Continue reading Nope 😭

I promised y’all I’d take you with us on our journey from the beginning this time, so here we are! We just transferred this beauty yesterday, 12/19. It’s a beautiful expanded blastocyst; the dr was very pleased with it and so are we! This is our 7th embryo transfer, so we’re going for all the… Continue reading Lucky #7 🤞💕